So for the past 2 weeks I think, I haven't made any AES. The stuff that I usually write is homework that I should do. I haven't had the motivation to write stuff. But I guess I had a lot to say. 

In KPB, we have so much time that we are confused about what to do. We are doing this musical drama, and we have made some progress so far. But it doesn't show any significant progress along like this one month of working. It wasn't that productive. I know we can do more. 

When I entered KPB, I had my expectations that we could all do the project together smoothly. But many of us still lack the power of focus, including myself. So when it comes to everyday life at KPB, personally, it is still hard for me to keep on track or do anything productive. I know that I can do more and better, but it is hard when there is nobody who pushes you to do something. So you have to do it all by yourself.

That is the reality that I have to face. To be honest, I have not been the best of myself since entering KPB. I mean, in the community that I go to after school, it's okay. But in school, I tend to distract myself from what I have to do. I question myself many times, why would I go down this path? What made me get into this hole again and again? 

It was a choice that I made myself. The question that is ringing in my head is, “What will you do with this much freedom?”. In junior high school, the teacher told us what to do and who you do that with. I thought that I was well prepared in KPB, I know what I want to do. But 2 months in, and I'm still struggling. 

When you can do anything you want, it suddenly goes blank. I have all the choices to make, and it's really overwhelming for me.

But let's see the other side! There are many opportunities that I had in KPB. For example, we get to know the ECSB and Sekodi! We can go on school days to Wahoo or Kiara Artha and count as school. I have my free time and don't have to worry about studying all 12 subjects in high school. 

So I decided this is the time to set my goals. Also, my memory wasn't always the best, so I will try to write AES about my week. Let's hope for the best! 

To end this,

‘You will succeed in whatever you choose to do, and light will shine on the road ahead of you,’ - Job 22:28