Today is day one of my being in school, well it was thrilling for me but enjoyable with people not seeing me as a "stranger". although I was on high alert most of the time and was always reading people's expressions most of the time after an hour or two I started to calm down and center my thoughts and started to get close to my classmates and friends a grade below me, that day started as uncontrollable panic and overthinking but things didn't go as I expected. I thought people were going to see me a bit more weirdly but that didn't happen and I thought things would be a lot more secretive and treated more "specially", but for me, none of that happened and I feel safer and a lot more controlled with my emotions and doesn't feel like the odd one, I want to say couple words before I go to the next story, I want to thanks everyone today who meet me and didn't see me as the odd one out and try to approach my examples like Zalika, Jose, Kiran, and I'm most thank full of is Saski cause after the school was done she asked how I feel after day one and that helps cause I wasn't to tell someone on how I feel, so I'm very thank full of that

So today I'm writing two small short stories cause I didn't write anything yesterday cause I was in the process of moving into another room, I think I wrote this yesterday, but I turn off my PC before saving the draft today I'm rewriting it. everyone surely has dreamt about something whether it's you being famous or being crazy rich. Still, for us who want to make that dream possible there's always a line of proses you have to go through and those proses might be difficult for people or some people are born with it. in some cases, most of us aren't born with the popularity of a celebrity or an unlimited amount of money and for me, it's kind of the middle, I came from a quite rich family from my mother's side, and my father's side but I never felt the "sweet life" and for me sometimes I was confused about it, like why can't I buy this small jacket while my mother can fly back and forth to the Netherlands when I was her age. although there were some histories that I couldn't talk about there was one dream that I still have to this day, which is owning a JDM Car (Japanese Domestic Market Car). You might be asking what is a JDM Car, well a JDM car is Japanese car that was produced from 1980-2000 where that would focus on acceleration than speed itself and you might recognize a couple of JDM Cars like the Mazda rx7, Nissan Skyline GT-R, Subaru Impreza, Toyota Corolla AE86, Toyota Supra 1994, and many more. I love these types of cars from when I was still a child and I'm still dreaming to this day I could buy one and custom it myself, well for me this dream is still out of my reach and I think the closes dream I want to achieve is to finish school and live a little before I decided to enter college and find a job to buy these cars that if waited for years.

so I think that's it for now, Peace

"スピードの必要性を感じる"