It took me a very long time to discover myself in a way that I can express myself, my thoughts and visions. Is there anyone reading this? Can I really reach you with my words? Do I make a difference? That remains a question, but i like to try. Along the way I found out what works and what doesn't work for me. I know my low points, my weaknesses and I know better than anyone about how I work. Unfortunately, I cannot control how someone else thinks, how they treat me and in what situations that has brought me. A lot has happened so that I have lost hope often enough, confidence has been damaged and I have often stood on the brink of collapse. Yet with time and awareness, I have found my way back and I have kept my goal in mind. I want to show who I am, not how someone else presents me or treats me. I want to share how I think and how things can be improved. 

When I was in a worse state, it was always something that was missing. Someone who understood me, who felt what I felt, who could articulate what was going on inside of me, someone who took care of me, someone who would guide me through the search and name of all the chaos inside me. But now, I have found someone. The person who finally knew how I felt. The person who understood what I needed. They may not be perfect, but for me, just them being there is very meaningful. I don't feel alone, I finally felt that warmth that I needed. So starting from today, I will try harder and harder everyday to be a better person. i would be better not only for myself but also for other people, if i could spread my kindness, then why not? I would do anything to make this world a better place.